Forever & Ever Amen 💞

So much earthly time has gone by. Yet, it seems like no time has past at all. I feel like I have been running an impossible unending gauntlet in this life. Every move I make, I find myself unsure of each step, of every decision, and I question every agreement I signed. I fall on my knees praying, I am choosing the right decisions. Bobbing, weaving, dunking, side-stepping, and at times just walking straight head into another task, I question all decision I am faced with.

In awe, I remember those last weeks together.  Video clips run through my mind of when we walked side by side, and no more words were needed, as our minds became one, and I became infused with more strength and courage that surpassed anything I could have ever imagined.

I do struggle to find the Peace I once had, while my beloved was at my side, but am also aware of the swell of gratefulness that continues to fill my wounded heart. It is there I am finding how thankful I am for being allowed to experience being loved so completely in this world.

At different times of the day, I find myself thanking God for the ability to recognize this ever growing gratefulness growing in my heart. This awareness seems to be infusing my heart with a sense of calmness and confirmation of eternal life beyond this journey in the here and now.

I seem to be waking up from a dream. I blink my eyes as I have been in a deep sleep. As I awaken, I am realizing my rutter and guide is no longer on the same plane. My heart feels the sting of loss, but seems to rebound more quickly than in years past

Now it seems, my direction in the coming months is to continue to be open to accepting all the Joy, Peace and Contentment the Lord has been patiently waiting to pour into my heart.

I will join my prayers with yours in Heaven asking Our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ to bless our children, grandchildren, great children, their spouses and beyond to be covered in the Armor of God, protected and surrounded by His Grace, steeped in all the Gifts and Fruits of the Holy Spirit to Know, Love and serve Our Him all the days of their lives.

I pray you continue to know how very much you are loved and profoundly missed and never doubt how honored I have been to be chosen to be your one and only.

Forever & Ever Amen, My Love.

Te Iubesuc’

Written by Deanna G. DeBondt

5:03am

September 7, 2022